So, mom and I take mental personal days every so often and go to the Casino for fun and entertainment…try to see how far 30-40 bucks can stretch on penny slots…and make fun of the zombies methodically pushing their buttons, glazed eyes at the screen. Some people aren’t impressed with 10 dollar wins! LAAAME!

So… I felt really really lucky all day. In the first half hour I doubled my money so I just played on my winnings for awhile. There’s a machine I won 168 bucks on a month or so ago…well, not the same machine but the same game ‘theme’/name and it’s really fun cos there’s lots of chances for blocks of wilds.

Over a period of doubling my 20$ /// making my bet back I got sassy and started betting 2 dollar bets. Lo and behold I got a 90 sommat dollar bonus, then a 60 dollar bonus, then a 119 dollar wild. I walked out with almost 400 bucks in my pockets. Starting with 40 dollars.

WHEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I came home, and started cleaning. I think I might have over done it a bit cos my back is hurt a bit but it’s not so horrible…but there’s always a chance once I’m done moving it’ll freeze up. Fudge that homes. Fudge that.

HOORAY RANDOM BIG WIN DAY!!!!

For really reals yo my goshdarned paper of DOOM is finally frickin’ finished. It’s still a little strange not having to stress out about it and wind up crying at least 3 times a week. It’s not perfect by all means. There’s only so much I can research about Why women voted for the Nazi party. Hell, if my government was gonna give me help transitioning to a full time homemaker…fuck yeah I’ll take it. And apparently most women who weren’t upper middle class in Germany did so as well.

Soooo…. now I get roughly 2 weeks of sorting out house stuff.

The weather sucks my ass so bad it’s like 60 degrees out and my fucking garden is stunted. I’m about ready to cut all our blossoming and started tomatoes to redirect growth once it starts getting warm again. The only stuff happy is our spinach, leaf lettuce and snow peas. We’ve gotten TWO collanders of salad fixin’s already.

Mike and I have been watching a ton of Ghost Hunter. Its awesome. Especially compared to the crap bullshit that is called ‘Most Haunted’. The show has already been debunked as fake several times….wtf? At least Ghost hunter is out to disprove stuff first and manages to catch stuff in a not screamy wussy sort of fashion.

Wayyy tooo cold for this time of year. It’s supposed to hit 70 by the weekend but I’m not hoping for anything.

On the sisterinlaw wedding front… apparently there’s drama about who’s walking her down the aisle. MIL is upset that SFIL is doing it and is so nonchalant about it…. drama at the rehersal…. All I can say is it may not have been traditional…and it may have made a couple people upset… but AT LEAST MIKE AND I WALKED OUR OWN SELVES DOWN THE AISLE. Plus, the poor girl (SIL) very much has sterotypical ideals about her wedding she’s been crying a lot. She made her future husband get a matching ring as hers….. she had gold…he had to have gold. I’m like… uhhhh…..so you’re not letting him be an individual? He proposed and said they could get married any time so she picked not even 2 months later. And then expects all the in between stuff to be available….like invitations. I’m sorry lady, most reputable places require 6-8 weeks OR MORE for anything that doesn’t suck. She wanted the place who did our invitation’s information and I was sooo close to denying it. But I didn’t cos she had to find out for herself. My place took awhile, was from canada, and cost about 600 dollars more than she’d be able to afford. Same as my cake place.
She has a shitty maid of honor and from every angle she’s getting people wondering why the hell she’s getting married. The guy is 6 years older than her with 2 kids already. i’m thinking since she’s one of those desparate I-can’t-be-alone-and-be-my-own-person kind of women she jumped at the chance to have an instant family. Repeat: Instant family.
Call me an old maid but I’d sooooOOOooo rather be single for a very very very very very long time instead of forcing myself to jedi mind trick myself into thinking something was perfectly perfect. Plus… I’m of the very weird opinion that if you’ve never been married before…maybe you shouldn’t marry someone who’s already been married and divorced. Especially when he wasn’t even divorced from his first wife to begin with…no matter how far apart and separated or how much they hated eachother. That’s just eating from the tainted meat market. Divorced people should stay in their own divorced pool unless for some whack ass reason it just works. But seriously…dating someone who is still legally married? That’s like my BBFWEU… earning a spot in the YOU’RE FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD line.
ventventventvent….

Women…a bunch of fucking retards most of us are.

Mike. I’m so glad we’re so darned cool. Even if we wanna rip each others faces off sometimes, and I’m the bossiest moodiest wanker that ever lived….. we’re a couple of pretty cool kats.

I sooo hope there’s an open bar at this wedding. I’m gonna get tipsy. notice I didn’t say ‘drunk’. Just tipsy. Just enough to make the horrible lameness fuzzy and happy.

((rolls eyes))

And is so going to burn in hell.

We’re eating fondu tonight. Hells yes testing the limits to lactaid. ha ha!

All I have is to finish editing and tying together my final thesis paper and turn it in by monday 2pm. I’m feart. But I’m so close, I’m so friggin’ close all I have to do is poop out 5 more pages and tie things together a little stronger.

Tomorrow I babysit my best friends kid.

Friday I fill in for my sister in laws retarded maid of honor and plan a bachelorette party. I’m the DD so that will suck my balls hard. How passive aggressive am I that emailed the maid of honor links to websites quoting typical maid of honor duties???? Not to mention she’s flaking out. Dumb fucking cow.

We’ve harvested up a fine batch of lettuce leaf and spinach. photos up in facebook

Lastly…

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I’M GOING TO NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Floor seats.

If I’m this excited now, and normally don’t get excited until very close to things happening…. HOLY COW!!!! (((SQUEAL)))

Any college student is well familiar with the odd populace that uses a roller-style suitcase as a backpack. They’re usually the older type, padding along in their sneakers and their excellent knowledge of handicap ramps and elevators. Secretly you make fun of them but secretly you are a little bit jealous too cos it’s a pain in the ass to haul your books around too.

Well…. I’ve become one of Them. Since I have, my back has been pretty darn good to me for almost 2 and a half weeks now. Unfortunately, planting corn yesterday and laying landscaping weed carpet down fucked my shizz up and I can barely walk today but using a roller suitcase is AMAZING.

Sick wise, I have a lingering cough, like usual that I jokingly say will stay with me for another month. I’ve ALWAYS had lung problems with bronchitis when I’m sick…at least twice a year for as long as I remember. Hooray chronic bronchitis. Boo coughing! I’m just very very thankful that I’m not on blood thinners anymore cos I definitely would be bleeding a lot from this.

My wisdom teeth are healing up really really well. They don’t hurt anymore and the holes are starting to close up. I can nearly eat like normal now. I go in on Wed morning for fillings and I’m super excited. Then comes prepping for my crown and fitting for a night guard. Remember how I said I grind my teeth so bad I crack my own teeth? Well now they’re starting to wear down a bit too (and I’ve noticed) so I get to wear a grinder guard to help stop the damage.

The garden is freaking cool. We’ve got planted as of now:

Acorn Squash
Sweet Corn
Romanesco Cauliflower
White Cauliflour
Broccoli
Black tomatoes
Red tomatoes
green
yellow
green peppers
jalapenio peppers
head lettuce
mixed leaf lettuce
snow peas
shell peas
pole beans
Cabbage
4 types of potatoes
garlic
red onions
walla walla onions
leeks
chocolate
orange
peppermint
2x hops (hardening off until fall and will be next years crop)
rosemary
dill
thyme
chamomile
echinesia
valarian
artichokes
asparagus (planted to be established in 1-2x years)
blueberries (I’ll have to actually net them this year from birds cos our bushes are kinda crap–previous owners).

we’ll plant more beans, corn, squash, tomatoes and eventually carrots, more lettuce as the peas/beans start trellising, def more onions and garlic will be for next season and planted in the fall.

I’m really excited to get the landscaping carpet stuff down for weed blockage so we can put down more cedar stuff in the walkways.

Out front we’ve planted sunflowers, and wildflowers and poppies as well as some bought established carnations and dianthus, pansy’s and violets. I so can’t wait for the violets to start slutting themselves out in the wind cos then we’ll have random violets all over the place :D. This year the roses actually look pretty darned good and strong compared to last year which was our first year in the house. I spent a loooong time pruning old canes out and fertilizing them for winter and growing seasons etc. When we cut the wysteria of DOOM down, underneath all the rubble were 4 totally new (old) roses we had no idea were there—they look pretty old too judging from the old canes and the root ball I can see. I’m super excited to see how they grow. I am really really REALLY tempted to plant a few roses in the backyard. I’ve also got 3 dahlia’s I need to plant soon but I have no idea where to put them cos they get HYOOGE! I wonder if I can pot-plant them? Anyone have experience doing that? I’ll look that up….

well, I’m off to bake a loaf of bread. Now that I can eat nuts again I think I’ll do another sunflower wheat mix. yum yum!

I am so flipping sick. I blame my immune system going to shit after all the stress I’ve been going through and then my panicking about my wisdom teeth.

Friday I had a temp of 102 almost 103, and it didn’t help that it was burning hot outside. I was incapacitated stewing in my own stew. I started hallucinating I had 6 arms and 6 lungs and then I won a science project for the best way to sleep when you’re sick. I was taking photos and doing interviews from my sick bed and everything.

I nearly begged to get taken to the hospital I was freezing and boiling I slept with a frozen jar of jam on my neck so my head wouldn’t throb so much.

I’ve got goobers and snot galore my throat is on fire, I think today my temp is only 100 something and I’ve been hanging out in the airconditioner in the living room. I’ve taken 2 hot/cold showers and am on my 2nd super big gulp of water. I’m nearly done drinking my pedialite. I’m eating mucinex and tylnol.

Something tells me I really should have gone to the hospital yesterday I really really really wasn’t with it. I was so so so fucked up and burning I was crying and wailing and pathetic.

My mouth doesn’t hurt anymore which is fantastic.

Oh and on top of everything! I’ve fallen off the roof! Fall off the roof with all this shit and it’s fucked up. I’m just glad my roof tiles worked the whole time I was in a freakin’ haze/stupor / sickness otherwise it’d look like some murder scene complete with psycho victim writhing around in their own problems.

ok I can’t think and hear or swallow or breath i’m gonna lay down. I do think my temp finally broke so now I’m gonna eat icecream till I pop.

M two wisdom teeth came out in a whopping…ohhhh 20 minutes or so. Not even joking.

the first one I panicked a bit because it was a little bit after the numbed the roof of m mouth (OUCH —I started cring). I couldn’t slow m breathing down enough and there were two pauses or so to make me take deep breaths. In between the two teeth I had a few minutes to calm down but I wound up shaking in my char so bad the whole thing was wobbling and the light was swaing back and forth. Then m second one–the bad one had a lot of pressure and I thought he went to get another tool and the dentists head pops over m face with a smile “All done! :D” and I’m like “No, no wa ou aren’t” and he’s all “ep, all done :D”

can ou tell I don’t have the letter that rhimes with lie? after X and before Z.

Anway… I’m so so glad I was on 2 valium or I would have flipped out. I flipped the shit out on tuesda so I took half a valium during the da and the prescribed whole one at night. Lemme tell allsalls I have never in a very very long time (oo y!) slept so well. I slept so well that I woke up at 5 and 6am prett much ready to start my day. Even this morning I had no problem waking up at 6am.

My first day without my two teeth is kinda achy and painful and I keep getting food stuck up in my holes. I know I need to NOT go fishing for it and just rinse gently until I heal but it is reall hard.

Somewhere in the midst of all this I’m sick. As the day progresses I’m sounding more and more like a hoarse zombie and m chest hurts and m throat hurts. I think it’s been all this stress that has made m immune system go to shit so I’ve been eating vitamins and minerals to see if that helps a little.

Anway, my throat really hurtsand I’m hungry like a wolf so I’m gonna whip up some soup.

woke up at 6am, showered, and got my italian test info studied.

Got packed up and ready to leave, went to 7-11 for my morning coffee as usual.

Headed out to go to school.

Someone braked hard in front of me…I break hard as well… FLING-FLY-SPILL goes my coffee.

All down my leg. My arm. Up on the dash, the radio, filled up the console where the E break is and started seeping in the seams. In the passenger side seat/floor. MY floor side. My seat. EVERYWHERE.

Steaming hot coffee cos the ice machine for once didn’t poop out ice for me this morning.

I. Lost. It.

INSTANT CRYING.

I call Mike in a panic crying.

I can’t handle today. I just can’t.

And tomorrow I get my teeth yanked out.

Stressing out is good for me. I gotta tell myself that. I work extremely well under pressure but socially and interpersonally I am a nut job right now.

I know I’ll be alright but right now I want to cry and throw up and maybe bounce around on one of those air filled kiddie castles and throw myself at the walls and floor and have a temper tantrum.

We have a gorilla theatre style skit to perform TOMORROW for our italian class which is essentially our oral exam final portion (early). My group has the basics down but I don’t quite feel comfortable using what we recently learned on the fly without sounding like an absolute dumb ass. I also have that final portion of our paper due and I only got maybe half a page done extra on top of what I already had which is in all maybe 3 of 8 pages. I know I can poop out a page an hour but I’m cutting it close and it’s not helping that I’m freaking out about Italian on top of….

WEDNESDAY being the day I get my wisdom teeth jarred out of my face hole.

The garden doesn’t stress me out but it’s painful to work in and I don’t feel like being in pain on top of being petrified and stressed out…though being in pain is frickin constant—-I have been feeling better doing stretches a few times a day.

Plus, the last two nights some neighbour dog has been up at god awfully inconvenient times of night/morning whining/barking extremely loudly to the point that I was super close to calling animal control or the police to file a noise complaint.

I can feel the fluttering panic starting which is ridiculously schtoopid I know it is but I can’t help it that’s a part of who I am and though I know I can be in control of the next few days and am doing really fine…. I guess I’m panicking that I’m panicking…if that makes any sense?????

I wish right now I can just have a giant washcloth come and swipe up all my crazy stress and scrub it away and leave me feeling all nice and pink and warm and relaxed and ready to GIT ER DONE!

So…

I go off to bed sorta early for me…which will mean I actually fall fully asleep before 2am tonight…to probably wake up 18 times in the night and hopefully wake up early to poop some sense into my brain in Italiano.

Ugh.

Non mi piace questo esame domani ‘un domani impossibile’ e la tema. >:( :S

JACKIE BEAT IS NOT work or kid safe. Use your headphones home slices.

By tuesday I have to poop out about….6 pages of my term paper. I have faith in myself, I’ve already gotten the following grades on what I’ve turned in so far…(15% of my grade) B,B+,C, B. This next portion is… I think 15% or 20% of my grade. Then the revision, then the final copy, and then of course participation and partner work which is 10% of the grade.

I’m shooting for a whopping C in the class so as long as I can just pass…I’ll be a happy lady.

It’s going to be a looonnnnggg day tomorrow.

Tomorrow Italian class is writing a short skit play thingy for our oral exam which we will do… TUESDAY.

Tuesday is my crazy paper giving back day so I’ll need to poop everything out by then.

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WEDNESDAY I get 2 of my 3 wisdom teeth pulled out. I am PETRIFIED. PEEEEH TREEEEHH FIYYYDDE.

I have a prescription for 4 Vallium, I don’t know how that shit works, or what it does but it better calm me down or I’ll freak out and wind up passing out. Not kidding. I do that. I get so nervous about stuff I’ll either have to pee cos I drink too much water too fast, or I’ll work myself up so bad I’ll feint. I am so scared. But I’ll do it. and I’ll feel good about myself.

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This weekend we rototilled up part of our lawn and side section and made more veggie space. We also added another row for veggies.

We’ve got planted and growing so far:

Pole beans
Snow peas
Garlic
Artichokes
Green pepper
Yellow Pepper
Red Pepper
Red tomatoes
Black tomatoes
Head Lettuce
Red Onions
Mystery plants that could be either:
???Cucumber, Zucchini, Squash?????
Purple potatoes
Yukon Gold Potatoes
Fingerling Potatoes
Red Potatoes
3 types of WILD mint of DOOM in the process of being tamed
Thyme
Sage
Echinesia
rosemary
Fennel
strawberries
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We will be planting eventually:

A ‘wall of corn’
Acorn Squash
Zucchini
Cucumbers
Broccoli (green and some other colour)
Cauliflour
Cabbage
White onions
Carrotts
More green beans
basil
spinach
Valarian
???

aaaannnddd

HOPS!

Yay! It’ll be a fun experiment and I know Mike will love it for his home brew. So far my home brew soda’s haven’t been fermenting properly. I think I under use the yeast or put it in the fridge to soon. (shrug)

I am keeping my fingers crossed that someday we can have our own chickens. 2-4 hens would produce a good lot of food (eggs) that we don’t have to buy from the MAN. Plus, right now, I’m reading about a whole lot of war rationing where eggs were pretty much black market and hard to find, doing my research and well…….we’re in a war…. already I’ve heard about rice being rationed at places like costco. Eggs, milk, bread are all going up in price. Like Hawk…. We’re going for self sufficiency.

I so can’t wait until the garden starts producing regularly so we can have a meal of a whole lot of our own creations.

Anyway….

I’m gonna be so flippin busy this week. Mogs…please let me know if you can come down! It will be a much welcome fun times!