calima

So long, farewell

Hello friends (et al),

Lately I've been considering the content of this blog. I've always struggled to figure out the correct balance of what personal information I should include, if any, and what the exact proportion of personal to impersonal information I should include here.

I thought I had found the correct balance, and I was happy with the way the blog was shaping up.

It seems that at least once a year, I have a complainer about my blog. Either I included too much, or included too little, yadda yadda yadda. And even though it's mine, I'm constantly feeling as though I have to cater to everyone else.

In my mind, I shouldn't have to cater to anyone, but, you see, that's the illusion. You do take others into consideration when you post, whether you want to or not.

This year, I have more than one complainer, and frankly, I'm too tired to deal with it. I'm tired of people thinking that they know me based on the scrap of information about myself that I include in this journal. I'm tired of people making assumptions about things on which they have no basis to do so. I'm also tired of getting pushed around and being told what I 'should' or 'shouldn't' do with my life, my relationships, my money and my job.

I don't post on here to get sympathy from anyone. I don't post to whine or beg or whatever. I started this blog as a way to keep in touch with family and friends that I left behind in the States, so that they may come and check up to see how I'm coping with life in Scotland. It occurs to me now, that I can just do this with email from now on.

I'm tired of receiving scathing emails from people who don't know me, who feel the freedom to say whatever is on their wee minds to me, without a thought about my feelings.

I've been insulted and offended more than once, and now there are those who are beginning to aim insults on people who are close to me.

All becuase of this journal.

So, I'm closing it. Goodbye, everyone. For those of you that enjoyed my blog on its humble merits, I'll miss you.

Just think, you'll never have to see me spell 'becuase' incorrectly again.

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