First things first, I must give props to Frank Herbert for the gift that is Dune. And Be ever so glad to have seen 'The Children of Dune'. It rocked, but it also rips your heart out. Imagine blubbering Hawkie, alone, watching the movie and BAWLING like a wee baby. Excellent Excellent Excellent.
Next, WHO STARTED IT? I MEAN IT! WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS TREND!!!!?
Whatever am I shouting about?
Moving.
I moved.
Legend moved.
Lava moved.
Moggie is moving.
Dusty is possibly moving.
Pipsie is moving.
Now, I am moving. Again.
At first I was hella freaked out. Ticked off, over dramatic, vomiting, etc. Yes, a panic attack was rapidly working it's way across my body, as Susan let me know that she was going to have to move. Financial neccessity. Therefore, we must move.
When? First of October.
HELLOOOOOO MCFLY I AM GOING TO BE OUT OF THE COUNTRY.
(I will not fear... Fear is the mind killer. I will face my fear.. Thank you Frank Herbert)
So, insert blubbering (yet again) massively freaking out pissed off scared at the timing etc.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I was m-a-d.
But, I thought about it. Work sent me home for my uncanny ability to half talk half cry without tears. ( aka pre-nervous breakdown material.) bless their hearts.
So, when I was done reacting, I decided that it was time to start acting. As in mature. As in collected.
I levelled with Susan, I can't afford to pay next months rent and pay for a new apartment. Not when they want first month's rent and a deposit. Not to mention the wee fact that I'd be out of the country. So, I asked her which option would she prefer, John and I move before my trip, or after my trip. I thought I was going to have to leave, and I didn't want to screw her over but I can't just do something that major when I am going to be gone.
And, to her credit. She freed me. She helped me. And I am so relieved. Because not only do I feel that everything is going to be ok. I still have our friendship in tact.
So, sommat embarrassed by my reactive behaviour, but the point is that I didn't allow it to go down the bad way and lose my friend.
everyone together:
huge massive sigh of relief.
If I had a nickel for every bit of drama....
love you all
Posted by hawkie at August 26, 2003 02:06 PM