I slept pretty well last night. First time in a long time. I'm beginning to work out again. The main reason isn't because I want a girlish figure back. I'm pretty certain, no matter how much weight I lose, I'd never get the skin to come back into place. *sigh* But, anyhow, It really relieves tension.
I get really tired of trying. Sometimes I feel like breathing is work. I think I'm going to have an old temper tantrum titled 'Why did i have to discover what growing up means?'
Walk an hour and half, and then feel the calm. The calm is multi faceted. It is an esteemable act, therefore, I feel better about myself. It is an action. It is not sitting, thinking, cleaning, working, or trying. It is doing. It is chemical. You work out, your brain releases endorphins. Endorphins make you feel good. I prefer walking. I miss having a treadmill. But walking in fall is inspiring, so I put on my tennis shoes (trainers) and walk the perimeter of my complex. Or I walk to the grocery store. Besides, outside air is good for you too. One of the things that I really liked was going to the supermarket everyday to get whatever. So, I walk even if I have the car.
Today, I am going to Columbus to visit my brother and sister. And my nephews. I've missed them immensely of late. I received bad news about Rex. But I can't say that it's unexpected. He's continuing his downward spiral. Remote and unapproachable, unless you give him money to support his habit.
My sister Kassandra is due to have her baby this week. This is her third baby. She has two boys. News is, she's having a Girl! Very, very stoked! I tease her that anything after 8 months, she's hogging the baby, and she needs to let everyone else have a turn at holding it. Oddly enough, I remember playing house with her and pretending that we had children.
I should be getting more out of the storage unit too. I plan on going up there with a stack of trash bags. I need to get rid of some things out of there.
My muse is intent on sawing the bottom half of my dresser off so that I can stick it on the shelf closet. Then I'm one step closer to my minimalistic, feng shui bedroom. the hugest step was doing the laundry. I still have to hang everything up. But, it's all done. (Well, I have to wash the comforters)
That's enough randomness for now.
Posted by hawkie at November 8, 2003 08:45 AM