Today seemed an extension of ineptitude. I don't even want to really go into what's happening at work, since I'm over it. I am not so good at not letting things affect me. And when in an 'affected' mood, it's just so easy to continue on that tangent. So, I have to strenuously displace myself from it.
Does it *really* affect me?
Is it a result of something I could have done better?
Is it my responsibility to make the orders that keep the store properly stocked?(oops, i let a wee one slip)
That's okay because the answer is NO.
Therefor, when I go home, I have every right, and every ability to relax and get done what I need to get done.
I have had a wee bit of adjustment angst with my new home. I am having a problem feeling like it is home. I feel that this is for a few reasons.
1)Our hand was forced, we had to move. This was the place that would accept us.
2)I probably would have moved back to Columbus, if I had known about this move before John moved
3)I feel, for some reason, it is better than I deserve.
4)I don't call it 'home' out of habit.
Since 1,2, &3 are all POINTLESS to ponder. I'm here for one year. At least. So,#4 I can do something about. I can call it home and let it become habit. It is home. It's feeling more like home everyday.
So, when I come home I say, "I am home now. I love being home. Everything else is the outside." Might sound kooky, but I find it relaxing. Then music. My musical tastes are excellent, if I do say so myself, But, my timing for wanting to listen to some things is not-so-excellent.
With the hubby out, his computer was at my disposal, so I watched some U2 videos. Renewed my highschool crush on Bono, and smiled some. I love to watch these guys. I love to listen, and I love that they are always speaking out for something.
I know I should be renting Amelie, but seeing as we are currently, and once again, without VCR, we will have to wait.
Why must I go through VCRs? People think I'm playing when I say I have a power over technology
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