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Fatigued

Can't place why, but I am fatigued today. I just feel drained. I think it's because I took that Tylenol cold and flu last night before going to bed because it's PM and sometimes I have issues sleeping. Well, I think it dragged into today, as I could nearly not get out of bed this morning, and I feel exhausted even though it's not neccessarily a long day for me.

Its so frickin cold outside right now that it's ridiculous. I think I'll blame it on the cold. Yes, it's that bitter type cold that whenever you go out into it, the only thought that you can have is 'How quickly can I get to a warm place?'
The air feels like it's attacking your skin despite the fact that you have clothes on. You don't want to go out in it, even if you *have* to do laundry, a week ago.

Yes yes yes i procrastinate, i know this... but I am getting better.

But on the other hand, I have made Employee of the Month! (Thanks Bitka for the congrats) I'm oddly proud of it. Even though I told my manager the reasons that I felt I didnt deserve it. He says, I do, so, who am I to argue?

Upon remembering that my father gave John and I money to get our own Christmas presents, which I am more than happy to do. Dad works at the post office, Christmas is busy, he and i are both practical sort of people. I was down there and I rearranged/ cleaned his kitchen and made sure it was stocked. that's my sort of present. And I bought a DVD and a VCR work out video. one is on Yoga for beginners. The other is 'walk away the pounds' it's supposed to be very good beginning tape, and both look like things that interest me and inspire me.

I had to get realistic when the Paula Abdul 'Shut up and Dance' work out video was completely too complex for me'. There's no way, i'll ever do it. I don't catch on to dance steps quickly, and that's just how it is, she goes through them too quickly, and the camera doesn't switch angles enough so that you can see exactly what they are doing with their feet.
grr.

Of course, now, i've got the heat cranked full tilt in the house and any time i'm really warm and comfy, i always want to sleep. so perhaps it's paranoia.

or perhaps it's procrastination coupled with boredom, i mean who has the time (truly) to sit here and wonder why they are feeling tired instead of fucking going to sleep?

hm?

Well i was waiting for bed time otherwise my schedule would be all out of whack and sheesh, that's worse than fatigue.

I am really excited that this weekend I have friday, saturday and sunday off!
yay!

Now it is finally time for bed

love yous
x

Posted by hawkie at January 6, 2004 10:10 PM