Baby baby I wanna hold you... I wanna make him stay up all night...
A song to keep Hey ya company.
I think I overdosed on french fries.
Strange enough, but i think that's what i wanted to do. eat them until i couldn't stand them.
I need to go to the grocery store.
But I was lazy and I didn't go.
plus i had to go to work and talk to my boss about a problem i'm having with a co worker.
this coworker has been increasingly difficult to work with and has actually crossed the line into using intimidating tactics. whenever i work the grill, he sees fit to yell at me the whole time about what he thinks i should be doing.
i am so sick of hearing him shout my name so that he can 'control' me by getting me to stop what i'm doing and let him show me whatever he thinks he needs to show me.
yesterday, he trapped me for a whole minute to tell me something that could have taken ten seconds. literally cornered me so that i couldn't really move until he said what he wanted to say for as long as he said it. he did it when i had my back turned and basically i was so suprised/aggravated because my concentration was in doing things quickly. we were in the middle of lunch rush.... i didn't even think about what he had just done.
then, today, he turned psychotic. i really wish i was exaggerating. he was saying things like 'i'm in control, i *will* be doing grill today' ( i was scheduled for grill) and i tell him that there's no need to be bent about it, i'd be happier to do sandwhiches (his job) so i switch with him, went back to sit down for my break and he's going on about how much he's in control, how he was gonna be on the grill or else. like i had no choice in the matter.
I told him that he wasn't explaining himself in a healthy manner. I am pretty proud of that response. Though, I wish I'd been more assertive in hind sight. I wish I'd stayed and worked grill and made his lazy ass work.
the way he was talking, he sounded CRAZY. like he was gonna hurt someone or something if he didn't get his way, and that he'd see that he'd get his way. because 'he's in control'. i waited for him to leave the building and practically begged the other guy to switch stations with him so that i didn't have to work next to him. i was so disturbed, that when i was offered to go home early, i pounced on the opportunity. then i went back to work later to talk to the general manager and demonstrate/ explain this person's horrible behaviour.
So, now that I've had a chance to think about this. And I'm not concentrating on my job. I realize what this guy was doing and I realize that I think this guy is the type of person that shows up and takes a whole slew of people out. My manager thinks that he's harmless and that he likes to intimidate women. Also, my manager has said that he will never put him on grill on a day he works. I told him that he wasn't there when this guy started talking crazy. He didn't see the look on his face. this guy wasn't reacting. he talked about it three different times in an hour repeating himself. Asserting his 'control'. I want to hate him for being so overbearing, for feeling that he can push me around.
at first thought, i asked the manager to schedule me away from him. but i realize, this was *exactly* what this guy wants. why? because i'm a threat to him. so i call back the general manager and say, 'put me right next to him. put me in the spot he wants to be in. i will not switch again.'
So, I've been sorta lazing about the house today as I try to digest all this.
I made homemade almond milk today. While it is not divine, it is good enough for cereal. I will have to continue working on the recipe, I think.
I have four lovely avocados in my fridge. I love the little mexican store (that I forgot to show Dusty)
Avocados for 99 cents
RIPE avocados from mexico perfect
Next thing I'll be making will be almond butter to replace peanutbutter in my daily grazing. I like making stuff from scratch. Its regenerating.
i'm being told by a certain string lover that it is bed time. hmf
Posted by hawkie at March 31, 2004 10:56 PM