i mean to.
This week has been pretty interesting.
Sunday, My lovely staffmaker came over and we *really* enjoyed our time together.
Make of that, what you will.
Anyhow, he showed up with a tub of shea butter and gave me a foot massage with it. I love foot massages. I have been told that I will receive the full body treatment shortly.
Bring it, pretty please.
Ive been dealing with AF this week who is making a royal bitch of herself.
I should be filling out the last of my required paperwork tomorrow before I begin management training.
On Friday morning, I receive an e mail from John. "Could you send me the name of the insurance company?"
That's it. I'm thinking OMG we had a 4 day lapse in our coverage, and he had an accident on that day. Fuck fuck fuck fuck.
So, I go to work, and I'm geeked. I can't concentrate. So, I go home for lunch and call him. I didn't want to call him, but I needed to find out what was wrong.
In short, no accident, but he got pulled over.
I can breathe again.
Unfortunately though, he asked some questions that I told him he didn't want the answer to. I didn't want to hurt him. I wasn't going to lie to him.
Yes, I've been seeing someone.
Yes, It's Mike.
Yes, I've 'done that'.
No, I'm not answering that question.
He LISTENS to me.
He treats me well
Our marriage is over in every way that matters.
We are only legally bound.
I am trying to file the paperwork, but I don't have the money.
Are you trying to ask if I am in love with him?
Yes. Yes, I am.
He tells me that he's disappointed that I didn't wait until our divorce was final to 'do things' and 'find someone new'. Again, I can not believe that he picks now to care that he has a wife. wtf.
I was really frazzled by that conversation. He has a lot of nerve.
I worked a crappy 10 hour, stressful shift, that day, and just shook when I got home. I worked out, went to bed early.
I woke up at the horrible 5:oo a.m. in order to be at work at the horrible 6:00 a.m. at the campus store on game day.
I got my ass worked.
I was going to stay until 2, but I could only hang until 1
I was beat. AF has really taken the fight out of me this week. And she's further going to cramp my style (pun intended) tomorrow when I have my day with Mike.
It's late, I am going to try and get to bed so that I can be with it tomorrow, and try to break this exhaustion.
hugs and love
Posted by hawkie at October 23, 2004 11:11 PM