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Did you make any new years resolutions?
I don't think that I did. I just have the general plan that I am always trying to pursue. Continue down the path towards health. That's mentally, physically, and spiritually speaking.

I am feeling a little better today. It's my day off, and I am trying to not do too much, but still get things done. I watched all three movies of The Prophecy, which of course was very medicinal. Hot men in long hair for several hours usually holds my attention. Although, I am not a horror movie watcher, the blood and guts and ripping out of hearts... bleah.

I've done lots of deep breathing and listening to music to help me relax.
I am past the freaking out mode that I was in last week. Now, I'm just in the 'deal with it' mode. Let's get this over with so I can deal with it, and hopefully move on. As soon as I get this car business paid for, I am going to put money aside in a savings account specifically for this sort of emergency. I drive an older car and therefor do not have to pay a car payment every month, and I also do not have to pay for higher insurance every month. That being said, I should be prepared for problems. See? I can cope, I can fix, I can move on.

The next order of business is deciding the specific writing for my disolution. I have to gather as many records of the time that John and I were together, any debt incurred, any agreements on personal posessions, and put it all in very specific writing. The tricky part is getting him to agree to it all so that the process can be completed. And I can be free.

I baked a little today. Lady and Troy wanted bread bowls for their soup. While I baked, I organized the corner of the kitchen where I keep all my weird food. Everything is so nice and neat now.

My room, on the other hand, still needs help. I think I am going to start on that this weekend. Not that it's hideous or anything.... It just needs a bit of help. I need to continue on my quest for organization.

Tomorrow, I should be taking a test in which I must score 90%. It's a management test that will allow me to go to the next level.

Then, Monday I work at the next training store where I learn the management procedures.

Everything happens for a reason, and I am chosing to believe that the reason behind these events are to teach me to be prepared.
I don't want to blame anything for my downward slump this past month. Really, blame is useless. Action is much more helpful. Taking action to change things one little step at a time. Next winter, I wish to have the majority (if not,all) of my holiday shopping done before Thanksgiving. Plus, I wish to stock my kitchen in such a way that I do not *have* to go to the store for anything other than basic perishables. True, you can't be prepared for everything, but you can have a head start. The best helping hand is the one that you give yourself.