New Leaves

I believe I'll stick to my original plan. I want to go to photography school and own my own business. I believe that this isn't the only way, but the best way to what I want. Not to mention, what I will need: A retirement plan. I believe that I've always wanted the business, but lacked the confidence in my ability. Not to say that I didn't think that I was artistic enough, but I was racked with the realization that I just took wedding pictures for someone.... What if I messed up? These are the permanent things. These are the things that live on after all the fuss dies down. If every wedding was outdoors on a beautiful day, then... no problem. But trying to adjust the lighting by either opening or closing the lens, or adding flash, or not being able to use flash (as most churches prefer) It was too much guess work, and I found that at the end, I took so many pictures, I couldn't remember what I did to make this effect or that effect.
Anyhow, it boils down to I want to know as naturally as breathing the way that a camera and all it's bells and whistles works. I want it to be near effortless. This will not only add to my confidence, it will allow me to concentrate on other things like not missing a picture.

I am not sure when I'll go. I believe it will be this fall, If I can help it at all. It is going to be difficult. I will have to work full time, go to school full time, and probably miss out on a lot of time with Mike and the kids this year. But I absolutely can not accept the style of life I've been living until I retire. Only to retire to no Social Security, and a pittance for a pension.

I want a house... I want a life... I want to be able to help put the kids through college...

When I am done with that school, I plan on taking up a few classes at the local college to get a few business courses under my belt. I am already business minded, but I admit to having little knowlege in regards to taxes and legalities.

Strange... I smell sandalwood.

I started my new job about a week and a half ago. Its not terrible. It's a job, and hopefully my assignment will turn permanent. There's always the drama of production vs equipment, and in some part, lack of training. I think I annoy my coworkers... it seems, I care too much. Oh, and I operate like a team member. Damn good thing I'm cute, they look past the annoyance. :P I've developed a "I don't care, this is the way I do my job until they tell me something different, and you can like it or lump it..." attitude.