I have thrown myself into working out. It is a huge help. I'm debating working out more. The return here is difficult. I cry at least once a day. The house that I left relatively clean is in shambles. This house is not mine. There's hardly any walking space. Huge trigger.
I am torn. I love Lady, I've talked to her already about moving in.
I believe the amount that she wants to charge (and have me keep a storage unit) is not what I can really afford.
I don't believe it to be a good deal.
I could rent an efficiency, all utilities paid, all my stuff under one roof, have complete privacy, and a lot more freedom. Yes, the neighborhood wouldn't be as nice. But that's where I am right now.
Also, they wish to move in spring of next year. This move makes 5 in the last 3 years. Their move in the spring time would be move number 6.
Also, I'm not sure that I would be able to tolerate her signifigant other. I know he means well, but he has a hot temper, and I just don't know.
If Dusty doesn't move in with her brother, I could move with her.
I am sure she will have my cat addicted to string again, but at least she has a 50/50 chance it will be her that wakes up with Hemlock on her pillow with a piece of string hanging out of his mouth.... at four in the morning.
The timing with Dusty is a tidbit off. I'll probably be moving the first or 2nd week of August, and she may not be moving until Sept. I could live with Lady for a few weeks while I get a job lined up, and hopefully keep saving some money.
Or, I could move in with my father. Rent free/ utility free while I'm going to school. My father and I could work on repairing our relationship. My father wouldn't be lonely. I would be 45 minutes from the horse farm. I could work for lessons or riding privileges. I have a friend in Lynchburg that was my high school friend. So, I wouldn't be completely without companionship.
Major problem with driving a UHaul to roanoke. Mike would be driving me down there. It would be so difficult. But I am completely uncomfortable with driving a UHaul with my car towed behind me.
I'm having to make the decision so fast, that I don't know if I will have any peace about it.
If I am not too tired from work, I will update some of my trip when I get home. My major woe right now has nothing to do with relationships and moving. It has to do with saddle sores. I tell you, riding in 90+ degrees, several times, takes it's toll on a girl. I've gone through half a bottle of baby powder.
If I didn't have to work, I'd turn around right now and go back to the gym.
Posted by hawkie at July 18, 2006 02:33 PM