Today, we get both of the kids. At least I get to see M before I move out. I really wanted to take everyone's picture, but I'd been holding out waiting for the right time and for people not to feel pressured about pictures and all. I
have to work unfortunately. I am hoping that when I go to work that they turn me around and send me home. But, I doubt that will happen.
Even though we've got both of the kids, I won't really be here for the visit. I need to go to Columbus and get things situated. I might see the kids in the morning before I head out. I am going to throw a few things in the car.
I talked to Mike about getting the stuff moved now instead of waiting until he gets his big check. I think it would be best. It would work for me at least. Then he can get his check, He can get a vehichle, and I can grab only a few things and go. Instead of some dramatic high pitched move ending with having to unload everything on top of it. If any of that makes sense.
Sum it up: It's less emotional this way. If there is such a thing.
I think yesterday was the day that I noticed that I felt stronger. Just a slight bit.
Plus, last night when I came home, I had a small talk with Mike. I finally got an answer that I can accept and that isn't so vague.
Sum it up: He feels that I'm too needy, and would like a person that makes more money.
I'd like a person that handles their money better. This is one area that we fall on two different ends of the scale.
I had a feeling I was suffering for K's previous actions. I wondered. I'm not perfect. But I am not sure that his interpretation of 'needy' isn't biased by his own problems.
I continually jump through the 5 hoops of grief.... well, four of them, I've not been depressed. I've been rather resolved. I just felt that I was owed an explanation a little more telling than 'We aren't working'
Ok, I've got a ton of things to do before the kids come over today. Sunday is my nephew Christian's first birthday. I'll be going to a party
Posted by hawkie at July 21, 2006 11:19 AM