New Leaves

Go, go, go, go... Do, do, do, do. Caca.

Finally, I get to Columbus long enough to take a small breath. I'm turning around and finding out right away, why it is good to lose your family's numbers sometimes. My sister is a total spaz right now. I can't exactly fault her for spazzing, but she's annoying me.

The family reunion is this weekend. I am driving to Dayton, wrapping up the vehichle issues with Mike (2 of his vehichles are in my name), Packing Scruffy up in the car, and driving down to my Dad's. My brother Michael is going with me.

My sister, who has been unable to get her stuff together, can't get a rental car for this reason or that reason, is spazzing because she can't ride with me, and I won't offer to put down my debit card for her to rent a vehichle. She's going to take a greyhound (with a 4 year old, and an infant) one way, and asks me if she can ride back with me and Michael.

Oy. vey.
Do I get any good sister points for not being able to say no because I love her and remember being in such a desperate time in my life that I absolutely hated asking for help??? I can hear the quiver in her voice. Gah, I'm a sucker. But she's still a spaz.

I was trying to get the job thing lined up, interviews, applications and all, but really I can't do anything until I come back... suck.

Oh well. No biggie. Take life as it comes.

I am trying to settle into my room. I had to move the furniture around because I just couldn't bear to look at it the same way it was when I lived here before.

I hate crying. I hate moving. I hate feeling like I've got to depend on people. I just want to get to school so that I can get into a field where I can make some money.

Sometimes, I think about dating again, but I want to wait until everything stops reminding me of Mike, and until I stop noticing everything that he would love. What all I'd like to get him, and suprise him with.

Anyhow. I love soap! That's a good thing! I get to ride at the farm again on Friday! That rocks. I think my brother is going with me riding... That's even better!

Dude, my brother just got a flower tattooed on his arm. Let the teasing begin.
dumbass.