New Leaves

My job is awesome!

The only drawback that I can see to it, is standing all day, in nearly one space.

Yesterday was a tough day. In the midst of getting everything done (all that I've had on my to do list) I had the nasty little thought enter my mind, "What am I going to do when I'm done with everything to keep me from thinking about him?"

Then ensued sadness. Followed by conversation with Lady, which ended me up angry about it all. She didn't do anything, I'm just angry at how I feel that he's changed. It irks me to see him numbing out in all the money he's got now. Money itself is a drug, and spending it, he is.

I got a nasty voicemail from him asking me how many times the cats threw up in his car on the way to Virginia.... I was baffled. I covered the back seat in plastic and put a protective blanket over top of that. There was no place in the car that the cat could have gotten sick without my knowlege. The only empty space was the floorboard where my brother's legs were. The cat stayed in the window the majority of the time... I sent him back a few voicemails... he's no longer taking my calls... I guess. I've not got a call back from him.

And I think to myself:
1, you never would have talked to me in that tone of voice before.
2, i returned the car in better condition than it was given to me... i made a point of it
3, my car, the one he drove since April, the interior is trashed, smells like cigarettes, ashes everywhere, B took an ink pen to the back of one of the seats, and to top it all off, he let a milk shake go sour in a paper cup in my middle compartment. I have only recently had the time to remove everything from the car, cleaning the interior will be done this weekend.
4, you don't need to make up drama to make the break up easier on you.

The nastygram has helped me a bit... It let me see just how much of a different person he is/ has become/ I don't know, sometimes I feel like I was duped.

I feel better since I've started working... Yay for employment. I had 2 days that I worked and then I have Sat and Sun off, and I work again Monday... Nice transition. I'm glad to be back at work.

My job is awesome. You are allowed to listen to headphones.. that's kickass!

Posted by hawkie at September 8, 2006 05:52 PM