New Leaves

It's been crazy.
I ended up helping dress the baby. I don't know if I'm blocking it, but I think I turned into someone else for a minute, went in with the mortician, took care of business. For a second, I looked at him and thought how beautiful he is. But I cut that out. I guess I answered a question that I had always bothered me with nursing... 'would I be able to handle it?' Yes, I could handle anything.

My mother ended up staying with me because she and my sister couldn't get
along. The worst part was seeing my brother so distraught with grief. No one should have to eulogize their own baby. Seeing him and the mother at the graveyard was absolutely heartbreaking. I had to walk away.

My mother is still full blown alcoholic in denial, living in an alternate reality. The rule was no drinking in the house. We compromised on a cooler on the back porch. After I took her to the airport, I saw 2 trial size liquor bottles on our CD tower. I could go on, but again, addicts have limited perception for how their lifestyle affects others.

Meanwhile, we are trying to get our store up and running. The health inspector did a 'no call no show' on us. Everything was set up and beautiful. He reschedules (without excuse) for Monday at 6:30 a.m. , Over the weekend, our refrigeration unit breaks down, we can't hook up our espresso machine because of weird plumbing problem, and our bulk grinder craps out on us. Dammit.

We pass inspection and are told that we can open when our refrigeration unit works. If the asshole had been here on Thursday, this wouldn't have been a problem. And we are now waiting for our second part of our loan to hit to get the stuff repaired so that we can work our stand.

It's like home ownership. I was distraught at first, and it's been even more difficult because I've been less physically active, and I'm about to start my period, so I've gained weight, and I'm bloated.

Bleah.

But I know it'll come off when I get my bike. I'll be riding my bike to work because I start so early. During nice months, I may ride my bike home, but it depends on traffic.

We found out that we can sell stuff in the alcove outside as long as it's prepared at the cart. This could mean double sales. Super.

Our menu is coming along. I really hope to be at full speed next week.

After dealing with family and consistently getting quazi negative feedback, we decided we are going to elope. We will have a barbecue or something, but we just aren't into planning a wedding while our minds are in this business.

Posted by hawkie at June 19, 2007 02:11 PM