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The Secret Bleep

Michael and I have been motivated recently to be more positive and have different thoughts. It sounds very woo woo new age and not practical, but really, I find the information fascinating, useful, helpful, and empowering.
The material suggested below spans many different beliefs. Michael and I go to a "Unity" Church, which is welcoming of all faiths and paths.

With my pinched nerve and horrible fear of being paralyzed, we've been using Chiropractic Therapy twice a week and continued positive thoughts and affirmations. It's helped immensely. My pain is diminished completely in certain areas and it's only a 3 or a 5 ( on a scale of 10) on the days that I've slept wrong, tweaked it from trying to do to much, or some combination of the two.

I am very thankful that this happened to me, it could have been so much worse and it's completely freed me of the horrible trap that I found myself in. Mentally, I could not accept myself or my body and the two manifested itself into sickness and unexplained health issues.

I realize that all of this sounds very new age and woo woo and fuzzy bunny pagan. But really I care enough about the people who read this to suggest it, no matter the resulting opinion.

Anyone who dares I would recommend the following:

What the Bleep Do We Know?
( A movie that is a little hard to follow at the beginning, but about 1/4 of the way through, they start making a little better sense and using more diagrams and illustrations.)

The Secret
(Again, the beginning is a bit overly dramatic and the woman's Aussie accent is really pronounced so it seems even more dramatic. I'd recommend using a pad and paper with it because after watching, I really wished I'd written down the very many good bits of information and thoughts.It's available in a book too.)

The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People:
(This is a book by Stephen Covey and it's a bit hard to read all in one sitting for me, but I like to read it in small increments and get a little something from it all the time. I feel like I digest and retain better this way.)

Captivating and Wild at Heart
(Two separate books that take a different look at Christianity and what it is specifically like to be a man or a woman made in the image of God, and the lies that we are told. It's healing. Captivating is for Women, Wild at Heart is for men.)

There was also something else we watched by Deepak Chopra about the Seven Principles of Spirituality... I think that's the title, but I can't remember, and at the moment, I am too lazy to look it up for certainty.

This past week the coffee shop had it's best week.

Our cats are nutty.

We'll be going to the family reunion this coming weekend and we are truly excited about it. Michael gets to meet my family and see the land that I am so fond of.

I've had to let go of the old relationships that I've had with my family in the past. Every time somebody needed something, I was there. Or they'd call me and I'd come and fix it. No surprise then, that I got taken advantage of. There's been very little contact from them. None of them have ever been to my house and none of them showed for either my wedding or reception. But, you can be sure that when they needed a way to get to the family reunion they found a way to get a hold of me.

Well, the answer has been to take myself out of that. They have the freedom to come over or not come over, and I have the freedom to as well. I'm certainly not punishing them. In fact, I maintain more contact than I prefer for the children. The children were born into this, and I care for them and how they turn out, and hope that they will grow up knowing that we are there for them.

I will continue to give of myself and my love because it is free without ties and without expectations.

The other thing that's been helpful about being in intense pain is that I, for a moment, was released from the thoughts of diet and exercise, and the constant preoccupation with image and the anger for being genetically endowed with such a body that needed so much work to conform. Shopping for clothes was a nightmare.

So, no more counting calories, no more working out three times a day and then not at all for months, and yo yo. I just don't diet. That's not to say that I'm not eating sensibly. If my body is hungry, I eat, and I'm aware of the need for a meal versus a snack or a desert. Now that I've got the ok from my doctor to begin exercising, I will be walking three times a week. I'll probably add yoga to that, I really enjoyed it when I did it.

I just feel free.

Don't get me wrong, I've not gone superhuman. I am just starting to actually enjoy my life and my self. I still have rough points, like this morning when we discovered that someone had decided to take our store supplies out of the back of our car and we were late to open the store because we had to go to the store for those supplies..... That was a rough minute, but eventually, I hope to take that sort of thing in stride without any reaction. I do hope that someone got it that truly needed it.

Hope you all have a great day.
Love.

Posted by hawkie at August 27, 2007 10:45 AM