I've felt pretty good the last couple of days. I've been practicing my positive stuff and it's been working pretty good. But I tell you. It's really hard. It's really hard to change your focus when you are down here by yourself downtown. There are very few people who come to see me other than Michael. I am grateful for those.
But it's really hard to change your focus when you think that you've given your brother a car, and he still won't drive it to come see you... ten minutes away. It's really hard to accept that I've been here for six months and only two friends have come to see me... no family. I invited a friend here today, and they said they would come and stay the whole day. I even offer them their food free for the day since they'd have to pay for parking. No show. No call. Nothing.
Then I overhear the landlord of the building talking to a new perspective tenant for the area that Michael and I wanted for an actual cafe where we could have tables and chairs. I wonder if they are a food vendor. At this point I feel like, you can only wear rosy shades for so long. If they are a food vendor.. I may be screwed.
Hopefully, I can shift my focus back to reworking the fall menu. I'm just done chasing people with my friendship and my love. I know it's supposed to be easier than this and I just don't accept it anymore.
Posted by hawkie at October 18, 2007 03:55 PMAw, if I lived there, I'd buy stuff from you every day.
Posted by Kim at October 20, 2007 12:31 PMI would have loved to have come and seen you guys on my way through to SD, but even with driving straight, non stop, with a yowling cat and grumpy dog, it took us 27 hours to make the trip. I have no idea what's happening on the way back since I'll probably be alone this time!
Posted by Loki at October 25, 2007 11:12 AM