Sounds like an oxymoron, but basically so many things in my life came to a head in the last four years that it became aware to me that if I obsess over them, (or try to control situations because I am afraid of having to suffer the outcomes) that I am just as miserable as I would be if those worst case scenarios happened; So why not let go?
Now, I let go daily. Every time a trigger is hit I say, "I am letting go." I say, "If my superior brains are needed then they will be asked for." You can offer once, but to offer continuously as a way to force an outcome is just not working. So on we go, letting go.
That's a lot of mumbo jumbo, but it's working. I can't afford the energy right now to give to worrying and excess anxiety, so while I can't see an outcome, and I don't know how things might resolve themselves, I just let them go and do what it is that I have said that I will do. What I do is the only thing that I have control of.
Enough of that.
So, that being said, My iTunes has decided to delete or conveniently lose a rare U2 live song for me. It is my favoritest song ever and I have searched high and low trying to find it again, and it is nowhere to be found. I can't back it up because it was on my iPod that was stolen back in September. So, I just keep hoping that it'll creep back up.
U2 Running to Stand Still Live from the 1993 concert that they transmitted over the radio. The guitar is rich, the band is in beautiful form, and Bono breaks into Hallelujahs at the very end.
No wonder with all this finding of serenity and zen that my favoritest song ever is titled "Running to Stand Still?"
P.S.
I tried to watch Sweeney Todd, but as much as I love to watch Johnny Depp, and as much as I wanted to love the macabre musical, it dragged the fuck on.
P.S.S.
Johnny Depp has absolutely beautiful hands.