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The Elephant in the Room

A lot has happened in the last few months since I stopped blogging. I didn't have time to read people's journals, and I didn't have time to write my own. My blog, to me, felt like whinging, constantly. It seemed that everything was funneling downward and I really just didn't want to record the descent.

So many people that I've lost touch with, so many friendships I couldn't keep up with, and a lot of hurt and disappointment at the lack of support from friends and family. I was really hurt and disappointed that so few showed up to my wedding and 2 receptions, not to mention only 3 of my friends and 1 family member came to my coffee shop while it was open. I abhor confrontation, and I just didn't know how to process it all. I got tired of sending 4 or 5 emails to friends and then no response.

So, I stopped blogging. I stopped calling people back. I stopped emailing people who don't email me back, and that's just how it has to be. I'm not the best at communication either, but I do try, I do travel, and I do care. I understand that everyone has a life and that they have limitations, but somehow I've managed to make space when and where I could.

Michael and I moved on the coldest day of the year (-20 degrees with windchill) into a tiny 2 bedroom apartment. We came back 2 or 3 times to Columbus to try and wrap up the house, but it took forever. Thankfully, I had the help of Dusty and Lady who helped us make it look even nicer than it did when we first moved in. I got back 1/3 of my deposit. Even though I should have gotten all of it back. It is still 1/3 more than I expected.

I've become inflamed (impassioned is the word I wanted to use, but it's not quite strong enough) over politics, the economy, the general downward slide of our country into forcing all members the middle class into poverty. Michael and I are both happy University students and putting our all into trying to have the best educations we can manage.

My courses this semester are:

English101
Speech (just shoot me)
Psych 101
Ceramics (oh yeah)
Uni 101 (Consider it a college retention class)

So my english class is kick ass because the teacher is the type of person who should be a teacher. He doesn't overload us with homework, he makes sure that he gives us class time to do everything, and has taken us to the library computer lab to personally show us how to use the data base to get our resources.

My Speech class blows because I hate public speaking.... yes, I can run off at the mouth constantly, but I actually don't like to do it for a crowd. Go figure.
and it's an insane amount of workload for a 100 level course (aka a freshman class)

Psychology is cool because that's my major and I'm actually retaining the info. I am fascinated by human behavior and brain physiology.

Ceramics is nothing short of awesome. I am getting back my old talent that I was afraid that I had lost. So I am thrilled, and I spend a lot of time in the ceramics lab to which students have 24 hour access.

Hemlock has finally grown back his fur, although his tail hasn't reclaimed all of it's glory yet. there's still the very end of it which I didn't shave that is a bit longer than the stuff that has grown in. Strangely he had gotten even fluffier. I really need to take a cat brush to him.

Domina is a butterball. She had lost some weight in the summertime, but that cat is fat. FAAAAT. and still cross eyed.

Pfeiffer is medium sized. But she may not get any bigger. She is extremely soft and very mischevious. She has expressed her displeasure at not being consulted about the color and design of the shower curtain before we purchased it. To let her displeasure be known she has climbed it several times. I have gone into the bathroom, turned on the lights, and been met face to face with Pfeiffer at the top of the shower curtain, eyes glossed, and unashamed.

I've gotta run. I have a ton of speech homework to do in order to justify any time spent in the ceramics lab

Posted by hawkie at February 10, 2009 12:27 PM