i like to push myself.
however, there are times when you should learn to listen to your body as it tells you to take it easy. i've started taking naps in the afternoons if i don't sleep well the night before. unfortunately, i usually only want to take an hour nap, but end up taking two-and-a-half hour nap. because i like to push myself and because i like to demand that i use every moment given to me to get my life into better order, i almost always have a fleeting moment of guilt for sleeping too long.
fleeting because i have become better at listening to my body and i think to myself, 'you needed that nap, you shouldn't feel guilty about it.'
at the moment i've been enduring the push of doing tae bo three times (sometimes more) a week, followed by a four-and-a-half mile walk. my body has retaliated with (what i am assured is supposed to be a sign of an active metabolism) ravenous hunger. i also walk to and from work almost every day, i work on my feet, and i put away the truck twice a week. i used to do the truck three times a week, but i decided to drop saturdays since it's my permanently scheduled day off and i felt unappreciated.... not to mention i have some major life changes in the works that require my whole weekends.... as many as i can spare, and as i see it, i only have one whole weekend in the month of august left over for these changes.
i will not freak out.
more on that at another time.
i'm a little more than nervous that my month of august seems to be filling up quite quickly, with extraneous things. again, overachiever in high gear will plow you a field to plant a rose sanctuary, but won't stop to take a sniff.
i am debating taking on two jobs for a time, beginning in september. but find that unlikely considering that my self improvement/health improvement schedule already feels like another job. it really takes that much energy and focus, because i don't like to do things half way. i think it'll be another year before i have finally reached the brass ring that is maintenance.
but i have some very encouraging physical results that require way too much tmi for regular blog land, so we'll just leave it at encouraging.
gotta run
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first thing i did when i woke up is say, 'jeez, i'm hungry'.
you know it's a bad day at work when you are repeating a mantra like this:
this is my job.
this is what i do for money
this is what puts a roof over your head
this is what puts food on your table.
leaving now would cause you more problems.
so, the store was robbed about a week ago. my general manager suffers from post traumatic stress disorder. coming to work for him, is clearly a battle.
i feel for him, and for the people who were here during it. (it was after close one morning) not my shift, and i was in columbus on the day that it happened.
his last day is the 13th of august, and more than likely, boy wonder will be taking his spot. i should be happy that i don't intend on being there past the end of august.
i had a little bout with low blood sugar on monday and i decided that was my cue to look up what i'm missing in my diet (don't be smart and say meat dairy and egg or ill kick your ass) nutritionally. since i've been working my ass off lately, and working out a lot more, (i'm either gonna do a triathlon or walkathon next year) and i'm trying to get conditioned.
the articles i read about vegan athlets suprisingly didn't advocate mass quantities of protein. i should be getting about 45-60 grams of protein. the real suprise was carbs. so today i experimented and added more carbs, and there was a definate difference. I was much more alert today, and even though it was truck day for the first three hours of work, and the seven hours following should be titled 'run linda ragged', I didn't feel like collapsing at the end of the day.
I am in the process of backing up my computer. it seems that the brat is ready to dump on me. very bad timing. i wonder if D can come up with a stuck up name for my computer. so now i went through and deleted a whole bunch of stuff, but my computer still says 'its getting full' so i think with the wipe, i'll buy more memory. fun fun fun.
Saturday was interesting. I was happy to be in Columbus early. I went around every where with my Lady. I was going to get my film developed, but the walmart lab was closed.
Then, lady and I went to Oakland Nursery, where we bought a cartful of greenery for the back yard. They were having a huge sale and we found a grape vine for half price. It was only 12.99 and it was a good 4 feet tall, very healthy looking. I dug a big hole to put it in, but managed to strain a blood vessel in my hand. Among other things we planted was a lavendar plant, 3 St John's Wort plants, a valerian plant, an our lady's bedstraw plant, and a licorice plant.
I shouldn't say that we planted it alone because Dusty showed up in the early evening and was there for the whole planting party. She kept disappearing into the bushes, though. I guess the natural habitat of the dustbuffalo is actually jungle in nature.
Sunday was interesting. Having heard from my staff maker... funny... he's most definately *not* mine, yet I call him mine, we went to the hippie meeting early in Dayton so that he and I could catch up. Dusty rode out there with me since I have finally managed to get her to go to the next hippie retreat. We talked for about 2 hours as he drove around and showed me places but never managed to find a place that we could actually sit and talk. :P
Then we went back to the meeting area where Dusty was ever so patient, and ever such a good sport for being left alone in a strange town and in a strange place. She got a ride home with Lady and Trish, and I took off like a bat of hell towards home. I needed to get on the road and drive fast while listening to music. I didn't get to drive very fast since the place was littered with cops.
But I was treated to a wonderful sight of a horse running in it's pasture. No rider, just the horse running because it wanted to run. Made me want to ride a horse again. Made me want to own a horse but I think that the apartment community would frown on that.
I came home, and unloaded the car, only to discover that I had taken off too soon. I had Dusty's camera in my car. Unfortunately for her.... *fortunately* for moi! I have a ton of ideas for images to put in Dusty's camera. ha ah ahaha ahahahaha
nah, i wouldn't do that.
or would i?
good thing i'll actually be coming back to Columbus on Friday to bring up another load of my belongings. It was going to be 2 weeks, but I'll be able to this Friday.
That's about all right now.
i was walking late thursday night and i nearly had an incident. i heard a dog barking as i was walking by their house and the next thing i know some short boxer type dog is speeding across the lawn in my general direction. well, i did what anyone would do. i first screamed. as some older woman is yelling 'beatrice! beatrice get back here!' and i take a look at beatrice who is determined that i've slighted her in some way and i think, i'm a bigger bitch than she is, and i say to her, 'get the fuck back!' in my alpha bitch voice and she stays about a 2 foot radius away from me barking the whole while. the lady says that beatrice jumps the fence and that she's very sorry.
well how fucking tall is your fence? beatrice is a boxer of some sort.... she's a foot-and-a-half if she's lucky....
friday, the area manager calls my manager and says 'cut overtime right now'.
then my manager goes back to check the times and he says, 'linda, you have to clock out in 45 minutes and you don't have to come in on saturday'
i proceeded to go on line, talk a bit with mogs and calima, pack up my car, and drive up to columbus. trish calls me and asks if i want to go swimming. hell yeah.
so i went to the pool with her and her two children and just so happened to arrive at lap hour. woo hoo.
so, yes, i am in columbus, and i am sooo glad to have two days off instead of working six days a week.
gotta run, things to do :)
it was fun, i went to my managers house and he had his band there (they sucked, but they knew it... so it was all good, besides they just got together the day before and pulled this stuff out of their asses) and he spent a good amount of his bonus check on fireworks... so the fireworks were pretty cool too.
i had to show my grace by falling backwards in a crappy plastic lawn chair, and not being able to drink water without spilling it on me.
i should have some pics up soon.
i got home way too late and am consequently very tired.
work out then sleep.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
You know.... you would think I would learn to be more careful. Or that I would make better decisions. Two days ago, I was making guacamole and I decided to cut the lime in my hand. A practice I do often. However this time the peel of the lime was tougher than usual and the extra force landed the knife into the side of my index finger right where it meets the palm. I keep a frozen wash cloth in the freezer just for times like this. (Wet a wash cloth, wring it out, fold it, stick it in freezer) Lucky for me, I stopped the bleeding and managed to coax it into not needing stitches. However, the cut likes to pop open on occassion. While it does not bleed it's basically saying to me... that it should have been butterflied. It'll be interesting to see how it heals.
The burn looks magnificent. I believe all the vitamins and protein I pack into my day has turned the 2nd degree-strawberry-colored-partly-blistered-partly scabbed area into a nice, smooth, soft-pink hugh that is barely distinguishable from my own skin tone. I truly expected a nasty scar, I don't think i'm going to get much of one if any.
I bought new walking/jogging shoes this past weekend, and I finally got to try them out and the shoes felt great. I should have bought a pair sooner.
I think that John and I are going to see spiderman 2 today. and that I may take a small nap since I started my day with a 175 piece truck, which took me an embarrassing 4 hours to put away. But, in my defense, it was a horrible order and just not at all helpful the way that it was just piled every where.
i think i'm gonna go get a wee back crackin'.
ciao