Ok... so... it seems I may have a new beaux.... in the making...
We've gone out quite a few times, spent a lot of time together, and just really
connected.
He's disgustingly sweet and romantic, charming to a fault, has great hygiene, and
is employed.
Disgustingly romantic would be defined as; learning the song "All I want is You." By U2, then playing and singing it to me.
I have to say it's almost overwhelming. It takes real effort to be present and try to forget that my ex was so perfect in the beginning too. We'll see. I can't say. One day at a time.
Work has been slow. Not getting very many hours, so I've started staying home and spending as little as possible.
Had car troubles, but thankfully for friends (Dusty with her AAA) and Lady called in a close friend of the family to help me find out what was wrong with the car, and they fixed it free of charge, but I gave them money for their troubles. They were awesome.
School is looming on the horizon, and I'm really excited.
I'm really enjoying my laptop. My holidays have started fantastically. Right now I'm listening to Mr Brightside. Love that song. I can already see me sitting at the coffee shop with my laptop, enjoying a soy mocha, headphones in ear.
I think that I'm going to have to completely erase my new ipod and start from scratch. The previous owner didn't clear it, and there are some songs on here worth keeping, but not at the cost of my sanity.
God forbid I should have to read the damn manual. :P
I'm supposed to be going out with Dusty tonight.
Hemlock is quite miffed that the lap top is in well... my lap, and he's not. He's taken to whining.
He's also taken to letting Dusty cuddle him. Attention whore that he is.
Ok, I'm off to read the damn manual, I have to figure this out sooner than later, better sooner because I probably won't have the patience once school starts.
I'm also going to listen to that song again....
If my typing is crap it's because I'm typing on my new Christmas present. Lady and Troy bought me a laptop and gave it to me early. Dusty was here when they gave it to me, and I squealed like a little girl. Dusty suggested that I put in an entry. I suspect its because she wants to snicker at me while I try to type.
My dad also got me an ipod Nano, that I've named baby. I know it's not original, but it's just sorta what just came out. So I went with it.
Also, I've been on a date. The guy is super nice, and I'm super cautious. But it's nice to actually go out on a date. A proper one where the guy asks, pays, and walks you to your car and doesn't try to maul you.
He's super sweet too. Employed. Artistic. Educated.
I told him that I love ee cummings poetry, and he took one ee's poems and drew me an illustrated interpretation.
Have I mentioned that I'm just trying to enjoy his company and be cautious? We are going out again Saturday night. His call. Vegan restaurant and gallery browsing afterwards. Totally awesome call.
I have the next four days off and I've done most of my chores. I think I'm actually going to relax and enjoy my holidays.
I've been off line for nearly 2 weeks. Just some stuff around here that had to be taken care of. Things are fine, and I'm still moving on.
I got to take M's b-day cupcakes to her last night, and I was tickled to see both of the kids and to visit for a minute. I had to fight some of the lies... meaning things that K has heard about me through Mike. It was just further proof that he never really, truly, saw me.... or knew me. I fought for a response that wasn't re-actionary, and defensive... but understanding and loving. I still love him. No matter what. I'm just not going to be with him. That's fine.
I've been doing a ton of soul searching for the last 5 months. Something about the breakup kept bothering me and I couldn't figure out what it was. I have come to the conclusion that he believed the worse in me was bigger than the best in me. The belief that "She wanted nothing to do with B until I told her it was over." Is a lie, and I've fought it and tried to look at it from his perspective.
When he told me, I did spend more time with B. But it's because I knew my time was short. Prior to things ending, I spent plenty of time with B, but Mike was sleeping. So, I don't think he ever saw it.
There's been great healing going on too. The last time I actually saw Mike to get the last of my stuff, it was not strained and it was actually a relief.
My dad sent me my Christmas present early, and I nearly bawled. He got me a 4 GB Ipod Nano. Every since mine was stolen, it's been sorely missed.
That's about all I have time to update about... it'll take me forever to catch up on blogs and e mail.
Thank you God, I can run again.
After falling off a horse alittle more than a year ago and injuring my back,
and then falling off my back steps and hitting both of my knees, I am able to
run again.
My knees and legs are so much more strengthened. My hip doesn't pop out like it used to. I really am fortunate to have such healing.
Tomorrow, I am a bit nervous about going to Dayton to get the rest of my stuff. But, I'm gonna go. I want to get this done with. There are only a few details left to wrap up, and they are on his end after this.
Life is moving forward. I can't wait to start school. I started a baby blanket for my nephew to be. I am actually looking forward to the holidays.
I was gifted today with a pair of Native American hair braid ties. There's a Native American that works at my job. He's real sweet. He's an older man, but he's just one of the nicest people, and I'm so excited to wear them.
Not much else going on.
Just trying to wrap things up.